- 15 February 2010, 22:52
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I'm an acerbic person. I can't help it. I try and I try again to be a little bit nicer. I just get so frustrated. I feel bad about how I was acting in class today during service. Telling people to hurry up and get out of the way. Eh. On one hand I feel like that's how you have to be to get things done and on time, on the other hand I feel like the meanest person ever.
I'm mean in general though. I always have some biting remark to come back at my friends with. It's not always meant to be mean..I usually say it jokingly; it's the way I was raised. People can't handle it because I guess it's not normal. I don't know how to change that habit, it's hard.
I'm building up walls after my last few relationships. That's what it is. I was never this bad before. I just don't trust anyone. And I'm bitter..mad at the world. I won't let anyone near me. I don't need you if you don't need me. And that's just fine. Suck it.
- 14 February 2010, 21:33
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I need to do something with this. I start to every couple of days, then I get into reading how to use the skin system on the script and I just give up. I mean the least I could do is get myself into a regular schedule of blogging, right? Or maybe talk about daily life/thoughts when I do. So I'll get to that, I guess.
I wish I had been born about three years earlier. I'd have been completely done with school for a year, and I would have gotten in on the more awesome years of being a teenager with the kids I know now. I couldn't possibly make it up now. I don't know anyone who likes to hang out like I do. I want to run around crazy at night; go random places at like 4 or 5 am. Just whatever. And I hate Miami. I'd much rather be up in Rhode Island at the moment.
I'm never getting married. I don't trust guys enough, nor do I trust myself. There's no way I'd be happy sticking with one person my whole life. I like variety and change too much. Maybe I'll get married just for the experience of having that wedding us little girls always dream about. Or I'll get married for the tax benefits..whatev.
Tomorrow marks the start of a new lab, my final lab. It's Advanced Dining - which sucks - but after this I'll be done with this term and start my Externship next term. Oh wait, I have another lab next term during 4th segment. So scratch that. I have to make up Advanced Patisserie and Desserts.
Darling.
- 2 February 2010, 17:29
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School has been throwing lots of stuff at me lately. I graduate in May. :) I'm still bored though. I'd like to do something different, and get my own place. I hate sharing my stuff.