Vespertilian

I'm an acerbic person. I can't help it. I try and I try again to be a little bit nicer. I just get so frustrated. I feel bad about how I was acting in class today during service. Telling people to hurry up and get out of the way. Eh. On one hand I feel like that's how you have to be to get things done and on time, on the other hand I feel like the meanest person ever.

I'm mean in general though. I always have some biting remark to come back  at my friends with. It's not always meant to be mean..I usually say it jokingly; it's the way I was raised. People can't handle it because I guess it's not normal. I don't know how to change that habit, it's hard.

I'm building up walls after my last few relationships. That's what it is. I was never this bad before. I just don't trust anyone. And I'm bitter..mad at the world. I won't let anyone near me. I don't need you if you don't need me. And that's just fine. Suck it.